{"id":1429,"date":"2019-02-13T00:15:16-05:00","date_gmt":"2019-02-13T05:15:16+00:00","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/peterjanes.ca\/blog\/?p=1429"},"modified":"2019-02-13T01:09:11-05:00","modified_gmt":"2019-02-13T06:09:11+00:00","slug":"headline-monologues","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/peterjanes.ca\/blog\/2019\/02\/13\/headline-monologues\/","title":{"rendered":"Headline Monologues"},"content":{"rendered":"

A short piece written for Tinkerspace Theatre<\/a>‘s Headline Monologues<\/cite> event last Saturday.<\/p>\r\n\r\n

<<huff>> I am so tired<\/strong><\/em>.<\/p>\r\n\r\n

It\u00e2\u20ac\u2122s cold, and it\u00e2\u20ac\u2122s dusty, and I just don\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t have the energy to get up and clean. I really should. I mean, it\u00e2\u20ac\u2122s been, like, eight months. But man, I just feel drained, like I\u00e2\u20ac\u2122ve been here for fifteen years.<\/p>\r\n\r\n

Haven\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t heard from my sister for quite a tick either. Aren\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t twins supposed to be close? We should be close\u00e2\u20ac\u00a6 the two of us, a couple of bouncing babies who no one thought were going to make it past the first few months. But we sure showed them, didn\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t we? Maybe it\u00e2\u20ac\u2122s because she\u00e2\u20ac\u2122s older? She was a real tomboy, always digging in the sand and doing her \u00e2\u20ac\u0153experiments\u00e2\u20ac\u009d. We were so tight for a while, but then she started kind of drifting away. Or maybe I did\u00e2\u20ac\u00a6 it\u00e2\u20ac\u2122s hard to remember now. I should have written some of this down. I don\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t even know where she is these days\u00e2\u20ac\u00a6 could be on the other side of the world for all I know!<\/p>\r\n\r\n

At least she got somewhere. Wow, that sounded bitter, didn\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t it? But, I mean, sometimes it feels like I\u00e2\u20ac\u2122m just standing still, you know? I\u00e2\u20ac\u2122m not really stuck, I just can\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t seem to move forward. Which is better than moving backward, I guess, but\u00e2\u20ac\u00a6 I don\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t know, it just seems like I don\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t have a plan any more. I know I\u00e2\u20ac\u2122m capable of doing whatever I want, but the little voice in my head kind of just stopped telling me what to do.<\/p>\r\n\r\n

You know what I need, is a little sun. Get the old batteries charged up, right? Wouldn\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t that be great\u00e2\u20ac\u00a6 I could just stretch out and get a tan, maybe take an opportunity to phone home\u00e2\u20ac\u00a6 that would really lift my spirits.<\/p>\r\n\r\n

The more I think about it, that\u00e2\u20ac\u2122s exactly what I need. It\u00e2\u20ac\u2122s so frustrating just sitting here, waiting for something to happen. I\u00e2\u20ac\u2122ve run a marathon already, I need to keep going! Hey voices, I\u00e2\u20ac\u2122m here! I\u00e2\u20ac\u2122m listening! Can you just give me some signal that you\u00e2\u20ac\u2122re still out there?<\/p>\r\n\r\n

<<long beat>><\/p>\r\n\r\n

I am so tired.<\/p>\r\n\r\n

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